Breather

2010-03-18T23:36:00.001+08:00

I should be studying, but i just can't stop thinking about how much respect I have for this guy.

kittybangbang

2010-03-18T23:23:00.003+08:00

I'm back for the 4th time. I shall not waste anytime dribbling on and on about what has changed since I switched to tumblr. tumblr's too messy for me; kpop stuff spammed all over, i don't even see the non-kpop stuff which i used to love anymore. i'm going to limit myself to kpop here. i'll spam it over at tumblr. I NEED ORGANIZATION.

today i headed down to ymca for trg and i ate lunch with the dustbunnies. wow food was really fast, we choked down that spicy and piping hot pasta. but it was really good at cafe cartel, so i definitely recommend it. ^^

i switched over to a little underoath and devil wears prada today. nothing like powerful and mellow lyrics to shake you up from a blunder of school and uncertainty. i remember the days where i would never wake up to a day when i forgot what happened that day. i wonder why the feeling wore off.

holidays are almost over and i have not finished my homework, so i shall be resuming my daily routine by finishing them by midnight on sunday. i hate it when my time management is so poor, but i'm going to enjoy myself this weekend, cause bestfriend's birthday is here again. which means mad fun at hilton :> i always had this dream about a really mad party with a huge suite and 100 people crushed inside dancing and having a whopping time of fun. love the idea though.

full day at school tomorrow. gotta get ready for a tiring day. but i get to see my friends, so it makes up for all the boredom. ^0^

physics (2)

chinese (2)

english (1)

HAIGUYZ

2009-10-24T23:07:00.003+08:00

HAI AGAIN.

okay to those who say I have not updated since exams ended, here's my new link.

http://tiantothefront.tumblr.com/

If you have tumblr, follow me if you want :D

By the way, I update my tumblr a lot.

more than i do here anyway.

I Have Moved.

2009-10-19T20:14:00.004+08:00

uh you get the gist haha
tiantothefront.tumblr.com

Stranger

2009-10-06T21:35:00.002+08:00

Hello guys, sorry for the lack of update!
These past weeks have been gruelling and tiring,
but thanks to my classmates, friends, teachers for making this few months worthwhile...
It's the end years' exams, I hope I'll be able to do well
My streaming choice would be double physics.
To qualify for it, you'd have to be able to get a total score of 130 marks for math and science
i think i can get 70 for math, but science is the tricky one...
i've been unable to get above 55, let alone 60.
But I will pray everyday that I will achieve the stream of my choice! (;
\
Thanks to my friends and teachers who have guided me in my studies, these past weeks, esp. choojia, nicole, kiana, melissa, hannah, yu xuan and so much more. You have been a huge help for me, I won't ever forget it ;)
\
Many thanks to mum and dad who have been so supportive of me,
cooking for me, helping me with my work, showing your care, all of which i am grateful for
I won't let you guys down! :D
\
In another 3 weeks, I'll be busy again...
Till then, let's all work hard together~!

HWAITING!

Alexithymia

2009-10-03T14:50:00.001+08:00

Heck yeah, reverence at its best.

it's Ryland btw.

INDE.

2009-09-20T16:20:00.005+08:00

Joelene, ivie, gladys, jasmine's cake.

While doing pull - ups in primary school, a p3 boy walked past her and stared at her.
PWNED. HAHA.

Sarah and Charmaine under the pressure of the spotlights.

The cake they made for my birthday(:

The cake we made during home econs.
ooh. family drama on friday night. Sorry mom. ):

It had to be you.

2009-09-17T17:08:00.002+08:00

Today my friend told me that she was stressed because she could not 
understand a thing being taught by my chinese teacher. I wish I could 
help her in anyway I can because every time I see her distressed, I 
feel useless and helpless.
I try to explain things I understand to her,
but I'm a terrible person to go to for explanations.
I sit beside her, but it would be better for her to sit with someone who can be 
less sensitive and rude. I've been so ignorant of her feelings,
I don't what to do when she has problems. I know it's more of a problem 
for her than me, I hope hat she can lean on me more so I can learn how 
to treat others when they have problems as well. I just want her to 
respect me as a friend who is willing to help her and not brush me away.

I know I sound really really emotional, but it's just part and parcel of life.
End years are here, time to dig in your heels and get things done.
Hopefully I can get at least a 60 for my lit,
thanks to choojinator for tutoring me everyday(:
pretty much school's the same, yet not the same anyway.

It's so different now, but I guess that's what makes it exciting and sad at the same time.
Acting older than we are, we really waste our time away doing whatnot.

As George Bernard says: "Youth is wasted on the young."
How true.
Should we strive for the ambitions we desire?
Or cherish our lives a little more?
Ah, oh the irony.

The Future was never mine to begin with.

2009-09-12T00:12:00.002+08:00

My fourteenth birthday just passed on thursday and many thanks to those who wished me a happy birthday!

Since a birthday is about growing up and all, 14 random things about my past, present and future.

PAST
1. Where were you born?
NUH

2. Describe a memorable experience in you primary school days.
Oh this would be... you know what. There's too much so I'd say P6 was my best year.

3. What has the past 14 years taught you?
There's more than meets the eye, be careful of what you wish for and you are what you eat.

PRESENT
1. How did you celebrate your birthday?
Uh I did project at my friends' house, but we swam and went crazy and it didn't feel totally serious at all. And they baked a cake specially for me, which was ultra sweet. I couldn't thank them enough. I went shoe shopping with my friend Hannah and her dad. She bought a nice shoe. I would also be going to the Hilton for a night's stay over the weekends with my best friends in primary school.

2. What would make this year's birthday memorable?
An unexpected person replied to me after waiting for so long. I was surprised and elated.
A whole lot of friends wished me and a cake made with pink icing. Everything was memorable.

3. What's your wish list?
I wanted to type a bunch of stuff but, it seemed really cold and materialistic, so all I really want is trust, faith, love and hope.

4. If you could wish for something that would come true, what would it be?
Peace? I don't know haha

FUTURE
1. What are your plans in 10 years' time?
Get into SAJC/ACJC/NJC, take up architecture, start a band, get a good job, maybe get married.

2. Kids?
Haha, two. Ryland and Summer.

3. List 5 things you have to do before you die:
- Live in Japan, Korea, California, Chicago and Germany.
- Go warped tour
- Have no regrets
- Love my family
- Cherish all that I have, with the faith that grows stronger

Thanks to everyone! Esp. people who took their time out to wish me a happy birthday!
Thanks Sherilyn, Kimberly and Hannah for the cake :D

Welcome to Oblivion

2009-09-08T22:42:00.000+08:00

You sent me on a relentless ride

2009-09-08T22:28:00.001+08:00

This is the email they sent me after I tried to upload Justina's video.
I WILL NEVER SLEEP, UNTIL I FIND ANOTHER WAY.

ok, i'm going to sleep now. i hafta wake up early.

Don't bully me, Don't bluff me.

2009-09-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

15 Random Things.

1. My room is in a huge mess. My guitars are on the bed. I ARE LAZYYYY
2. I have 5 homework left. I have 2 days to finish it.
Yeah totally I keep track of my homework the ol' skool way.
To do lists. OH YEAH you should totally check this site tadalist.com
srsly i do all my lists there and it really helps to get the job done.
whenever i finish one, i just click one and it gives me this huge sense of accomplishment haha.
so just do it.

Math Pyth. Project
Chinese gong han
Chinese gong han (newspaper
Chinese Worksheet
English Compo 8

3. I tried to upload Justina's 14 Birthday Music Video on FB but it didn't work cause Miley's hoedown throwdown was in it. YA LA THANKS MILEY FOR THAT/copyright violation? HUH?!

4. Dione and I spammed each other's wall yesterday. LIKE THE WHOLE OF YESTERDAY. how awesome is that. We even attracted some passers-by like kiana! OMG IT WAS THE BEST. If you think kiana is an ahlian, go and see our walls. Laughable.

5. I. LOVE. JIA. YING'S. AMP!!!!
I can't stand it! Her amp is so cute and tiny, you can even bring it to school! And there's distortion eqquiped in it. Mine, is so bulky and huge! What's more, there's no distortion pedals! RAWRR! >:< I ARE ANGRY.

6.My tumblarity shot up like mad on sunday. From a hackin' "3"to "68"! In an hour!
Xintian, you have done mummy proud. NEXT!

7. I am a k-pop fan. Just kidding.

8. But I do like to look at Kim Jeong Hoon.

9. He's so cute, he reminds me of a little boy. But he's 30.

10. I want to shop online so much argh I want to be bigger. I wished that I was big enough to fit into niceeeeee clothes. Really. It's not fun when you have to wear the same shirts and SHORTS again and again. I WANT TO BE BIGGER.

11.I need to go shopping for stationary

12. You know the whole hurrah on "oh im so scared of streaming, i want to get into blahblah pure this pure that." Yeah okay. I want to get into pure stream too. "XINTIAN! WHY ARE YOU NOT SCARED?! STILL BLOGGING NOW SOMEMORE." Yeah I'm scared. Who isn't. STOP PUTTING PRESSURE ON ME.

13.Madina Lake was far from I imagined./

14.I can't wait to swim/bake/film the advertisement(:

15. Study hard, kid.

Big Curly Style

2009-09-07T18:41:00.002+08:00

Today was a bad day for me.
I woke up late, I had a terrible headache
Nausea, i puked a few times EURGH I FEEL SO DIRTY

But on the other hand, I found out that my mom is quite a fashionista than she makes it out to be. I found a few oxfords, scarves, necklaces and blazers in her wardrobe. Wow, instant makeover! Uh haha but it's much too big for me.

I cut my hair again. Hahah I know I've been going under the knife for so many times already, but yeah I'm stopping NAO.

So... on friday we got back our progress report and I was utterly shocked that I got A1s for the wrong things. Like Art and Home Econs. Like that's useful.
Hahaha it was so hilarious because we were adding up our marks and it seems that a lot of us couldn't even qualify for ITE HAHAHAHAH
My mom was glad though, that I passed chinese, woohoo.
Sorry guise to those who were feeling an all time low(sorry for the pun)

yeah so if i say i was halfway done with my work, I'd be lying haha.
Im almost there!

Kimbzx, it WILL be fine. Because you have the will and power to endure this.
Remember what made you friends. :)

Last thursday I saw nicholas LEE for the first time(don't get any wrong ideas) in 3 years!
I thought he moved to the states but he was living a few blocks away from me-.-
Wao, its been going great for him and I wish you all the best when you finish your O's! :D

Desperate Times, Desperate Measures

2009-09-06T20:50:00.002+08:00

Priority according to order.

TUMBLR

2009-09-05T22:53:00.001+08:00

FOLLOW ME ON TUMBLR THNKZ
http://tiantothefront.tumblr.com/

Good english.

2009-09-05T13:49:00.002+08:00

As cliche as it sounds,
You're my day late friend. :)

everyone has the same face

2009-09-05T13:32:00.004+08:00

from jared leto, to zac efron, dylan sprouse, cole sprouse, kim jeong hoon.

30 seconds to mars vs princess hours LOL

click for a larger picture, look from left to right and you'll what i mean.

HOLY

2009-09-01T23:34:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO PRAISE THE LORD

I'm going to pretend I never saw that because I know obviously I'm going to be super disappointed when the rumors aren't true.

Yay one more thing to look forward to! I'm going to work hard and if I don't get into phys. stream I will not let myself go singfest.

I will sneak in to get a shot though.

:D WOOOOHOOOO

anatomy

2009-09-01T18:20:00.000+08:00

what happens if your muscles move on their own?
It's been happening for over a day now.

Shadows fall very low

2009-09-01T01:53:00.005+08:00

Your motives unstable you're like an unwinding cable car
Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are
Go your own way, even seasons have changed just burn those new leaves over
So self-absorbed you've seemed to ignore the prayers that have already come about

This is the correlation of salvation and love
Don't drop your arms
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in

Backing away from the problem of pain you never had a home
You've been misguided, you're hiding in shadows for so very long
Don't you believe that you've been deceived? that you're no better than...
The hair in your eyes, it never disguised what you're really thinking of

Anberlin ; Baybeats 2009

2009-08-31T00:05:00.004+08:00

Just got back from Baybeats this year.
Gladys, Ivie, Jiaying, Nicole, Yasira were there!
Anberlin was here from their australian tour with TAI.
Though it was sweaty, drizzling, crowded, smelly, noisy and lastly, acoustic,
SHEESH ANBERLIN WAS THERE! What more can I say.
Yasira has the photos of the set.
Oh wow, I can't believe they were there.
I still haven't come to the point of realization that after seeing them on the internet and seeing them live was so much different. It's BETTER!

Gladys, Ivie and I caught forthiscycle's gig and we left halfway cause the crowd was so dead.

Oh and we ate at Carl's Jr. The only number they could give us was this ><

We soon left and Jiaying and Nicole stayed to watch the full set of anberlin.
Their experience was:

DropDead says (12:04 AM):
FREAKING INSANE LAH
DropDead says (12:05 AM):
I got out of it asap
DropDead says (12:05 AM):
THOSE PEOPLE ARE LIK !@&^!%@^#%&#*@$(&!@&%^#*@
xintian? says (12:05 AM):
SERIOUSLY
DropDead says (12:05 AM):
But the music was damngood even though the sound system was a bit cocked up.
xintian? says (12:05 AM):
who moshes at anberlin haha
DropDead says (12:05 AM):
YES OMG. I have so much things to tell you.
DropDead says (12:05 AM):
PERCISELY
DropDead says (12:05 AM):
They were even moshing to Inevitable.
DropDead says (12:05 AM):
LIKE WHAT THE ____ .
xintian? says (12:09 AM):
HAHAHHAHA
xintian? says (12:09 AM):
OMG THATS FUNNY SHIT
DropDead says (12:10 AM):
I KNOW RIGHT?! And during the course of the whole thing, a lot of people backed out.
DropDead says (12:10 AM):
Like grown guys.

Yeh and I saw alot of people I know from school and like, everywhere.
I'm glad I went this year, I hope they bring in someone good next year!

EXCHITED. :D

Photos

2009-08-30T23:53:00.006+08:00

Huge update of photos!

To see the photo album on facebook, just click the title.

Baybeats 2009; Anberlin

Making the video of Justina's Birthday Video

Ivie's Birthday; Night Safari

Happy Birthday Ivie!

2009-08-29T20:14:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IVIE VEE VEE YOU ARE AHLIAN!
happy to be 14? just a year older makes a whole lot of difference!
I've said what i wanted to say already, telepathy!
It's easy to read our minds. (:
Have the happiest day of your life! :D

went to night safari with ivie, gladys, jolene, clarice and carol.
Everyone was gheying away.
from ivie's blog:

We just got on the tram, then there was this euarasian family sitting infront of us, daughter son father and mother.
Xintian: Wow hot guy.
Me: (points to the son) yeah i know.
Xintain: No la, that one. (points to one of them)
(Just so happens the person turns back)
Ivie: Thats the mother
Ivie Xintian Carol: HAAHAHAHAHHAHA!
Then on the way back on the tram ....
Xintian: "Wow the animal is so cute!"
2 seconds later...
"oh thats a rock"
Jolene Ivie: HAHAHAHHA!
WHY ARE YOU SO FUNNY XINTIAN!
The woman on the speaker: Now here's where you can find the animal bongos.
Jolene and me: Banglahs?! HAHAHAHA!
If you cant take racist jokes, dont highlight the blank part. No offence to anybody.
Fun fun fun fun really fun day @ night safari, i think that really made my day! Somemore, Buy one get one free ticket, double awesomeness!
The woman talking on the speaker sounded very seductive, totally siwen's type.

michael jackson on tv. He just did crabcore haha. Means he just squatted with his legs open 180 degrees.

What seems to be the brightest light.

2009-08-27T20:07:00.002+08:00

Gui min's birthday on wednesday(:

Farewell party for dance seniors today, was feeling quite emotional about everything.
Phew, finally the farewell's party over, it was a tough time to make the souvenirs.
Great time, great food, great games and many thanks to those who turned up and made it possible(: I'll miss them a lot >< sniff
eh charmaine and sarah and the sec 3s better not give us pressure kay HEHE ><

Baybeats on Sunday! it's gonna be ultra crowded and I hope that I won't get stepped on.
Hope no one crowd surfs in front of me because I got hurt enough haha
The late night anberlin show is gonna be RAWRSOME. Oh and I hope that It won't rain!

Joanne's bowling competition on saturday, I hope that I can make it to give her extra boost(:

I am going to buy TDWP's album soon. Once Minying returns me my 20bux.
MEENYINNGGG!

I had a heart to heart talk to vee last night.
It's been a long time since we spoke on the phone about everything under the stars
till her phone battery died haha

Yeh, thaz about it, going night safari tomorrow, gonna be scared shit less haha

YEAHYEAHYEAHZ

2009-08-23T23:55:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANNELLE LEONG FISHBALL HEAD
miss having you around chatting me up and making me laugh for no reason
thanks for being sucha true ,true friend!!!!! ARGH I don't know what I'd do without you!
I know you won't ever read this so I'll be extra mushy hehe
I'm glad we were able to catch up hehee Love your umbrella of messages? ><

I hope mrs rao gets well soon... it's starting to worry me.

yearg I can't wait to start BALLEHZ.
(that's not ballz)
Yeah call me gay, whatsoever I heart ballet i don't know why
It seems I'm caught up in the dance fever haha
AYE WISH TO RANT
guise, dont insult the love my life kay, i have huge respect for it
How huge, you'd feel wierd thinking about it
ok this is wierd and... pathetic

see ya 'round in skool ><

tag replies

2009-08-23T23:54:00.001+08:00

justina: HU HU HU EVERYONE KNOWS NOW. ah, just me. HAHA.

minying: HU HU HU nah, i ain't!

Setting the mood.

2009-08-23T23:45:00.004+08:00

My week has been... Argh, let the pictures do the talking.

Prick? Why'd they censor that in Everything We Had? (It's TAI related)

Heck if my room looked like that... I'd never leave the house.
I can't wait to live in England.
Or japan. Or Southern California. Or LA. Or Texas. Or whatever.
I love the trees in the background. I love the shades of purple.

I will be on my feet, wanting to love again.

I live in a muscular, sunny island (;

Mumm0ra

2009-08-18T22:40:00.001+08:00

I hate side-tracking.

carol

2009-08-18T21:11:00.002+08:00

IH performance task continued today...
we watched a video on the bombing of Hiroshima on BBC.

Carol: omg when did this happen?
others:world war 2.
carol: HUH?! then you mean they bomb again for this video?!

yup. carol the best.

Hoohaah

2009-08-18T20:42:00.002+08:00

There was IH performance task yesterday and man it was so funny.
carol as the night guard playing mario, her actions were so exxagerated!
i got shot. hehe.
ivie as the nerdy eurasian teacher, cannot open her umbrella to defend herself from carol(CAROL! TOO FAST!)
ivie got shot by nicole:
nicole: im sorry, i have to kill you
ivie:(begs for mercy) NOOO!!
nicole:...fine then.
ivie: really?!
nicole: no. BANG!

dannielle working at the deathrailway. she died. HAHA.
i shot nicole. haha
me: even though you are british prisoner of war and you helped us, the japanese, an british is still an british.
nicole: what? wha-
me: (attempts to shoot nicole)
me: (whispering to ivie) eh how to shoot ah?

the gun's business went on for about for about one minute because i didn't know how to shoot.

kiana spoke and we were lying dead on the ground.

HURRAY. overall, i'd say it was a success. BUt we didn't get to use our special effects, YET.
HEHE.

Tug reply.

2009-08-18T20:40:00.002+08:00

justina: but I want a BARBIE ONE >< (pouts)

ivie: aye agree!

kim: hehe followed!

carol: THATZ NOT MEE! HAHHA RANDOM GURL. haha the gun thing was total fail. TOTAL.

ven: haha

2009-08-16T00:01:00.001+08:00

My dad

2009-08-15T21:25:00.002+08:00

Now as you know, my dad is really unpredictable.
A conversation went like this not long ago:

Dad: (comes into my room) hey try this cookie.
Me: (Takes a bite)
Dad: (stares at the video on my computer) What is this?
Me: The song is called "Remembering Sunday" (My dad's a fan of guitars and it was a cover video)
Dad: Oh, very nice.
Me: Nice right?
Dad: Yah, so crispy and sweet.
Me: HUH?! (the cookie -.-)

DAAAAD!!! -.-

Wrapped around your finger.

2009-08-15T01:30:00.003+08:00

Tumblr posted this picture with blue borders. ><

Two Names You Go By
1. xin tian
2. china man

Two Parts of Your Heritage
1. Chinese
2. More Chinese

Two things that scare you
1. Nightmares
2. The future

Two things you do when you are happy
1.Speak to God
2.Binge on food

Two things you do when you are sad
1. Pray to God
2. Play my guitar

Two things you do when you're bored in class
1. Sleep
2. Doodle

Two things your teachers/peers say about you
1. PAY ATTENTION
2. your head is too small/big

Two of Your Everyday Essentials
1. Food
2. Internet

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1.my glasses
2. pyjamas

Two of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists
1. The Devil Wears Prada
2. The Young Veins

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. Listening to music
2. Eating/sleeping

Two things you suck at
1. Games
2. Team sports

Two Things You Want Really Badly
1. Itouch
2.Really great academic results

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation
1. JAPAN!
2. california/chicago

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die
1. Love God forever
2. go japan/california/chicago/warpedtour

Two Things You Are Thinking About Now
1. Home econs and chinese test on monday.
2. The air-con's really cold.

Two Stores You Shop At
1. Daiso(haha i am a cheapo)
2. Online

Two favorite web sites
1. YouTube
2. myspace

Two Favorite Sports
1. Tennis
2. Track and Field

Two People who will fill this out
Venetia, Ivie, Kimberly, etc. anyone who has blogger
(okay, i know that's more than two)

Two things you did last night
1. Sleep
2. Rush through proposals and reports and half way a black out -.-

Two shows you like to watch
1. The OC
2. hana kimi(i know this is gay, don't remind me)

Two places you like to go to
1. big sunny fields
2. friends' houses

Two Favorite People
1. anyone who can
2.put up with me

Two Favorite Subjects In School
1. Math
2. Chinese/Science

Two Favorite Places to eat
1. Ajisen Ramen
2. Ikea

Two People that live in your house
1. mom
2. dad

Two things you like about yourself (physical)
1. my hair/neck/height
2. stomach(always grumbling)

Two things you ate today
1. Fried Rice
2. Water

Two people you last talked to
1. Mom
2. Dad

Two Things you’re doing tomorrow
1. study
2. dance

danger:wildman

2009-08-13T22:31:00.001+08:00

a long time ago, perhaps one year ago, i remembered this quote so clearly:

Life is too fun to be emo.

I'm glad I remembered it.

This changes everything.

Juxtaposition

2009-08-13T22:12:00.002+08:00

omgomgomg i'm going to sound like a total bimbo now
but i just saw this online store that sells komme de garcons(clarice!)
and marc jacobs shirts ahhh but it's 38 + 40 bucks = me broke ):
i haven't even returned 95 to ame and chooj argh i still have so many to pay,
argh im destined to have money problems for life. what worries me is that when
i am an adult i will owe people a lot of $$ >< I'm scared!

performance at the genee awards gala night was superbly inspiriing, esp the sota
dance and thaddaeus with his double jete woohoo! I'm so motivated by those dancers!
and that guy's what, my age? I can't even do a jete right and he can do doubles.
omgomgomg i can't wait to go on pointe, i have a feeling i might be changing schools(!)

skoolz wierd. skoolz. i no like home ec.
looking forward to sunday (winkwink)

Stand up for Moove

2009-08-09T20:35:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGPORE(:

I remember the day exactly one year ago, I was at NDP with all my friends at school, friends I made there... It was so fun and extremely high for me! I wish that I would feel like that again if I ever took part in NDP again.

Happy Birthday to my mom!
Cake ordered by my sis, tiramisu, hope she loved it(:

Miniscule

2009-08-06T23:09:00.003+08:00

A bunch of stuff:

1. With roots above and branches below - The Devil Wears Prada
2. On Letting Go - Circa Survive
3. Postbox EP
4. Someday came suddenly - Attack! Attack!

We all grow old anyway

2009-08-05T20:47:00.003+08:00

check out this distortion pedal the effects are amazinngggg!

A beautiful Discord.

First thing I'm getting when I get my first salary!

Combination streams are out. I'm thinking of choosing pure physics and chem, i absolutely want to take physics no matter what to become an architect! Oh yeah I just found out (again) that my deskmate Hannah wants to be an architect too! Coolio a basketballer-turned-architect?
Weird. Dancer-turned-architect? Phooey!

Some funny shit about Nicole yesterday and today. They are such interesting people.
So underestimated, sigh. Because Kiana is an ahlian! No matter what dione answers, you are still an ahlian hehe!

Why did the ice melt in the beaker?

Because Kiana is an ahlian!

The world revolves around you haha. Be HONOURED.

Went over to ven's house to finish up the tshirt designs and man was it fun.
We talked to pellet a little, and I was completely dao-ed by a rabbit. -.-
Best part is, her dad may be opening a VANS shop in vivo and we might get to work there during the holidays! We were renacting the scenes where we would be rushing here and there bring boxes and boxes of shoes and us getting suan-ed by our classmates who were just walking by...
But seriously if you see me there, DON'T HUMULIATE MEEEE! I am begging you... ><

I'm so excited for teacher's day! Our teachers were to become our students on that day as a role reversal! Such fun, my group are teachers for Ms Mary and Mr Ang. EXCITED.
Dance was cancelled cause Ms Fong was sick. I do hope she is feeling better! 38.7 degrees sia.

I guess I should get on with my homework now, ish piling up, I cannot play maple till the weekends... ):

smack the ants on the table

2009-08-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

I didn't eat anything in the room for the past few days, but ants are invading my room once again argh it's so annoying.
Every 10 seconds a little dot moves around on the table, afraid of unsuspecting punishment.
HEHEH. SMACK!!!
Violence is bliss. Sometimes.

Performance ytd was good!
Felt even more energised than the previous performance of the same dance.
Ohohoh and my friends and I made up a cheer, with funny moves and a lot of kung-fu "HAH!"s
Oh yes, no matter what I won't ever forget what ferine did to me... >:<
Right before our last rehearsal, Ferine stepped on my foot right before we were walking up the stage. I WAS WINCING IN PAIN WHILE DOING MY CHAINE WITHOUT TAAAPPEEE!!
THANKS A MILL. Overall, what a funny and interesting night

okay so here goes the mundane part because you know how my sunday gets... (churchless)
blahblah...ate dim sum with parents... blahblah... picked up my phone... blahblah... came home and used the com blahblah... had dinner... blahblah

but thankfully, there isn't common test tomorrow. WOOOHOOO praise the lord because i can't study human reproductive system for nutssss!

my debt of $135 is finally paid off! WOOHOO *cheers! Now I just have to return $10 to Clarice and $95 to ChooJia and Amelia... (groan) No difference anyway, I only paid $30.
I will! I will! I will return my debts!

Prioritsation! I will study for my tests and do my homework dilligently!
Mai motto.

Oh yeah ven if you're reading this, go read these mangas:
Kyou Koi wo Hajimemasu
7th Period is a Secret(i think they can only be found on onemanga)
Sry I couldn't find the bag beside Rubi in orchard.

Between the lines read "faith".

2009-07-31T21:19:00.000+08:00

This place is not a home but the roads have led me here.
Isn't all of this inevitable?
So this is what they call the moment before you fall.

If this should be my last, then have I tried my best?
Or this is just a sorry excuse to be away from all the hurt?
That has been eating me inside,that I have failed to grow
And knowing that you've died just for me to fail.

Fear, it's meaning.
Fear its meaning.
Fear was never mine to begin with.

The heart speaks its own truth and way, fearing one day an attack will strike.

Rude Awakening

2009-07-31T00:18:00.002+08:00

My english teacher Mrs Rao got to talking about interesting topics about how everyone who blogs about meaningless things were exhibitionists.
She mentioned twitter as well, and she said that people who made uneccassary comments out loud during class were what you call "twittering".

Hannah: Imagine next time there's a school rule," No twittering during class".
A lot good will that do. It'll only make things worse.

I'm not supposed to be here right now because school starts exactly in 7 hours and 7mins.\
But this is impt.

Sorry guys, this is a HUGE apology to everyone who's had to put up with my shut downs and sad frowns. Sorry you had to put up with these past months where I would feel so totally down and it would affect your moods too. Sorry for being so selfish and I promise I'll become more cheerful and optimistic because I don't want to worry everyone. Sorry Sorry Sorry!

During dance today I was made to do chale's over and over again.
I was so scared I was going to fall like last time and the way Yu Xuan did it was so sharp and fast I felt I couldn't hold a candle to her. Everytime I walk to that part of the stage, my heart would beat so rapidly because of the intense pressure. The intro, the starting. If I failed, I would bring the whole dance down. Yet, I have not found the confidence and relaxation I need.

My confidence wore away this year, so much that I never stopped to wonder how passive I've been. It's all being run on a fast-forwarding tape. I can't stop to look, think and wonder at the things happening around me. I just hope that I find peace in God and he would let me wander in a time-stop for awhile and let me catch my breath.

feel the warmth I’ve been waiting for so long

2009-07-31T00:10:00.001+08:00

So this is what they call
The moment before you fall
The part you fall so deep
Into slumber

hmmm?S

2009-07-29T23:32:00.001+08:00

funny video about underground/indie music

Change is Epic.

2009-07-29T23:19:00.003+08:00

Right here! Right here! After the announcement of P!ATD's split, Ross and Jon have finally came up with their new band: the young veins

I prefer it so much to P!ATD. Am expecting great things (:

School, Chmool.

Twitter

2009-07-28T21:27:00.003+08:00

Check twitter cause I may be lazy to blog.
Check back for updates! ;)

Return of the Jedi

2009-07-27T20:48:00.004+08:00

Chermaine scribbled this in my science notebook today:

You always feel that something is strange
But you may not be the only thing that's changed.

I'm still trying to figure it out. Now I know it's not at all close to what she actually wrote, but I only remember the words 'strange' and 'change'.

People fell ill, more like had headache. 3 down.
kiana, carol and gladys. our class is half empty now.

I still remember I first stumbled upon copeland, was when I read my sister's blog from a long long time ago. Oh how she's changed. Now she's into like ZoukOut and DJ TIESTO. Who the heck calls themselves a tiesto.

I need to count money. And thanks a mill to choojia and amelia for helping me yknow
it was fun watching the potter with you guys^^ a thousand laughs and liquid luck on your way(:

I got back my chinese test today and I was so lucky I passed since I've been failing the year ): mosquitos at the back are still buzzing non-stop you know who you are guise. shush it up!

Tom Felton??
He sings, he acts, he dances, he waves wands, he shoots wands out of people's hands, he's in slytherin, he hates harry potter and he plays the guitar with a british accent. YAY US

Gone back to grace.

2009-07-26T01:39:00.003+08:00

Click here if you want to see how prada in Texas looks like.

This is so stupid I'm playing maple. Just to pass my time away...
But the reason I really want to level up is...
I just want to go Ludi and kill everyone MUAHAHA
and then I'll stop. Hehehe!
It's been so boring these few days, I've got nothing to feel excited about.
Except for the performance on 1 aug and 10 aug but I'm so boreed of that dance already.
Though some moves are still pretty hilarious.
I'M SO BORED I"M SO BORED I AM SO BORED RAWR!

Boy, am I pooped out. Left the house at 1430 and came home around 2300.
I had this wonderfully-
Wait. Why am I telling you about stuff that nobody cares about like how my day went?

Hah, just kidding.
Someone told me today I shouldn't use sarcasm online because people get the wrong idea.
Now try this. Say ,"That's lame!" like you're talking to a friend.
Now say that again like you're a computer.
Hmm, makes a WHOLE LOT of difference.
Dang I'm being saracastic.

Yah I just came here to say that the ION was totally boring.
I've seen everything without stepping into it.
Rubi, Chomel,Diva,Fox,Muji,G2000.
So you're telling me it's a once in a lifetime chance sale!! don't miss it!
I can get it anywhere else at the same price.
It's waste of space.
I rather the fillipino/philipino/indonesians/cats/dogs/mouse/hamsters having picnic beside the mrt than this big metal chunk blocking my picnic mat.
There, I've said it. Don't keel me.

Ainur: HAHAA YOU TOO!
Carol: NO ONE WARN ME LOR! I just stared at the com i couldn't believe i waited 10 mins for that... haha
Jiaying: yesyesyes! and totaldefencedat DID NOT count (: sean smith? whuz he? haha me too i can't do it but trust me my fringe is WORSE.
K: I'm 5% bored now ahah

Tug reply.

2009-07-25T00:14:00.002+08:00

ven and ting: i laugh like mad HAHAHA when i saw your tagboard the best la you all fight like kiasus sia! HAHAHAHA

ven:wth i laugh like MADDD!!! ARSHKERZICH! HAHA damn funny his keyboards key all drop out HAHAHA wth la I know i noob la I just started playing wednesday k.NEVER READ THE POST AH. DON'T BULLY AND JUDGE ME. haha ey wait until i lvl up then we play for fun ahhaah we go LUDI!!!!

Justina: HAHA EPIC I couldn't find a video of her wearing the wig so luckily, the photo came in handy YIPEE! YEAH IT SUCKS TO HAVE SOMETHING STUCK IN YOUR THROAT!! last but not least, HAPPY BURPDAY!

k: i die so noobishly wtv i'm gonna lvl up i lvl up 13-16 today leh! not bad right? uh only 3 lvls haha haha

sherilyn: YA LA AND THEN YOU STUPID GO AND MAKE ME LAUGH LIKE SIAO AND THE GUOLIANG NOTE AHHH!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTINA& JIAYING(:

2009-07-25T00:07:00.004+08:00

Haha what WERE you thinking? haha

Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear. ~Ambrose Redmoon

I'd like to say this to you, because I feel you're worthy of this quality.
It's the best I see in you, as well as everything else.
Thanks for the encouraging words, I never felt so touched before.
Your words were so genuine and sincere, I feel like I'm floating on a cloudd....
You never fail to cheer up those around, intentionally or unintentionally.
That's what I like the best about you, ever so forgiving and kind.
I will miss your smiles, your laughter and your SHAMWOOHOO and everything else.
You're the friends I really care about and have grown quite attached to you(;

Truly, an memorable friend that will stay as a fond memory in my heart forever (:
I wish you all the best in your music career, We'll always be supporting you!!
GO JUSTINA!

(oh yeah thanks for introducing me to shammy because it had me saying shamwoohoo! all the time) :DDD

I'LL MISSS YOU LOADS ):

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAYING!
Sorry I don't have a photo of you ): we need to take a photo tgt man!
BLACKOUT? MUSE? I MEAN LIKE WOAH HIGH FIVE LOW FIVE!
thanks for being so nice and funny to me! I feel like we can relate to each other well!
cmon, shia. okay we have the same tastes and that's awesome!
I finally found someone I can talk to about stuff yknow
thanks for being so nice, aww you cutie/tall pie haha go cut side sweep laaaa (:
Hope you had a great day spent today (:

Old habits revived.

2009-07-24T13:31:00.006+08:00

(That picture was supposed to be animated, but anyway.)

I have started playing Maple again.
before I start I know everyone is going to say,
"Oh my gosh xintiannnnn that's so lame/childish/boring/stupid/retarded/uncool!!!!"
WHAT. YOU NEVER SEE NOOB BEFORE IS IT.
I am THIS bored.
My non-social life starts and soon I will be addicted.
That's what happens to all of us.
Okay, only me.
My goal, is to get to Lvl 20 by this weekend.
Okay I know you all are laughing at me.
I know I am very noob, cannot even defeat Balrog,
I know you all very pro already, lvl 80+ or wtv
there is no need to bully me. Understand?!

LudiLudiLudi!

English relief teacher was so cool.
She let us listen to Death Cab's What Sarah Said.
Like how cool is that?!
I'd listen to death cab for english ANYTIME.
And she went to a MUSE AND COLDPLAY CONCERT.
If Mrs Rao doesn't come back I want her for our teacher.
She's nice too. Finally, a teacher I like in the school.
Took long enough/

I had a short day at school cause we were dismissed early due to speech day.
Felt like 2pm already.
Babbling about Maple to Carol, Liwen, Kiana and Nicole.
Eeeee I feel like primary school boys
THANKS LUH GUYS NEVER TELL ME ABOUT THE BALROG AT LUDI.

Hannah didn't come to school. How boring.
Empty seat beside me...
No one to take foolscap(thx sherilyn)

Group Discussion with sherilyn, nadiah, joanne and sarah.
Sherilyn and sarah. both seriously retarded. JOANNE ALSO.

2009-07-24T02:13:00.000+08:00

i've got no one to talk to anymore
everyone simply had their own lives to take care of
im so invinsible because i make myself invinsible
i thought that i could focus on other things around me easier this way
in fact i feel so lonely so much it kinda feels like i've got no life
lack of social skills and wish i could turn back in time and not do this
im so dsitracted by everyone i cant study
hillsong concert tomorrow, everyone going except me
though they didn't ask me
i hope they have fun
Am I that invinsible to everyone

Brain Malfunction

2009-07-22T14:39:00.000+08:00

Ever felt like killing the computer when it hangs when you're playing a game?
WATCH THIS. you'll feel better.

Designer Drugs and designer friends

2009-07-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

Ads on facebook

Cocaine or sugar?
you decide.

Sick

2009-07-21T20:02:00.002+08:00

Been to the doc's, 2 days MC, Throat feels terrible, worst yet.
Feeling weak and giddy.

The science test tomorrow, skipping it since am sick. Yay i have more time to study but I am scared for the test still. Ytd I had chinese common test.
I know it won't turn out well because it's freaking out-of-syllabus.
I realised that I have been making the same mistakes for the past 3 common tests and I only realised it NOW.

yesterday we went over to botanic gardens for the video thingum. I really hope she'll like it (: Now I know what triggered the sore throat. Ice-cream. Coke. No water for 4 hours. ALL cold water. Came home, nuggets. NOOOOOO MY THROAT HURTS I FEEL LIKE CUTTING MY HEAD OFF ARGH PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE GET RID OF THIS SWOLLEN REPTAR-ISH PAIN.

Last night I dreamt that I had a distortion pedal attached to the guitar and I was about to play it till i realised I left a shoe in a movie cinema and I ran all the way back, flustered.

LOL WUUUT.

Smile because you never know who's falling in love with it.

2009-07-20T23:10:00.003+08:00

I AM SICK.

Show me the skies of every horizon

2009-07-19T21:51:00.003+08:00

Show me what I'm Looking for - Carolina Liar
Real World - All american Rejects

Studied with ven at the newly opened starbucks.
Met some funny people, saw beverly there. We were hobos for a few minutes.
Ate newyorknewyork. not worth it but was very very contenting in terms of quantity.
Hehe^^ we had fun(:

We the sheep.

2009-07-19T21:30:00.001+08:00

Have you ever wanted something you couldn't afford yourself so you decided to ask your mom and dad?

watch this till the end. YOU. WILL. LAUGH.

2009-07-19T19:05:00.001+08:00

ven: o.O hq=mandy HARHAR kidding
amelia: well you can start thinking every second about him haha
minying: si wen la
kim: but how come i only see people post pictures? i dont geddit

BleepMeep

2009-07-18T00:50:00.003+08:00

Ross and Walker.
RIP, P!ATD.
):
I am very sad after listening to them alot recently.
No more mini-ryan. No more brendon and ryan ):

for sku today there was no home econs so kiana, joanne and ivie just slacked at the back. Our class became a guitar shop loaded with 4 guitars haha.
I can't imagine Carol teaching Ivie. Too funny.

Hmm, can't we be spared from this indifference?

Fold 50 paper cranes by next friday.
wtv the fake bird, my teacher folds her cranes with two heads LOL
rushed to fort canning.

Ballet Under the Stars (BUTS, haha)
i had megafunz with my dance palsssss
laughing, screaming and kicking when we're right in the centre of everyone
We talked about everything under the stars and srsly was the best night ever.
I was so inspired at the concert. They danced with so much emotion, expression, energy and flowness, it felt soo... perfect.
Lately I've been lazing aboutin dance and this was the perfect chance to wake me up.

Me and Yu Xuan went on a shopping spreeee for everyone's dinner and I met nat and her sota friends. Man I haven't seen her for such a long time. she still looks the same ><><>

after we tore the rubbish bags and threw everything out they let us go early and they cleaned up our mess themselves. Bless them for having such kind souls. Thank you cleaner dudes. Srsly saved my life. ^^

Much thanks to xuan for helping me go through all that crap when you could have just gone home aww so sweet thanks yea? I owe you starbucks BIG TIME.

had to scrub the whole thing. Now I know never to leave my belongs lying around. Don't ask me why it was doing in the rubbish in the first place. :/

memememememeeeoooowwww! K im so tired now I just can't be bothered to dry my haaaiirrr >:<>

P.S. I lost my umbrella. How hardcore can I get. But I'm vely sad. xuan don't keel me okay. heehee^^

2009-07-16T21:39:00.001+08:00

What's all this thingamajig about?

What is Tumblr anyway?

Swim away, idling.

2009-07-16T21:09:00.005+08:00

To Joanne and Kimberly:

I am a flower with no petals.

I am a bird with no wings.
I am a sky with no clouds.

I am a boar without its teeth.

I am a human with no heart.

Yet, I have five hearts.

Love, Compassion, Peseverence, Equality and

Sensitivity.

You are that diamond which ceases to exist.

You are that Invention which ceases to exit.

You are that morally abnormal asylum that keeps it growing.

You are that.

No longer more than us.

I am jam packed.
Friday:Ballet Under the Stars
Saturday:Dance rehearsals
Sunday:Chinatown
Monday:Botanika Videoka
Tuesday:Science tuition.

(I wish I had Circa Survive's On Letting Go.)

During ArtyFarty, chatty with jiaying, nicole, ivie and kiana.

colouring-fail. You guys are the first characters in my show,

"iChinaManRulez"

i am determined to pull up my science marks. So horrible. So terrible. It disgusts me. I will not fail. I am after all, a british.

minying found new friends. funny unexpected, hey.

your guitar bag "sexy"

tug replies

2009-07-15T22:08:00.002+08:00

sherilyn: nononoo haha dont do that starbucks WOOHOO
ven: yeah one day we taupok him just kidding hehe
amelia: i knew it i just knew it ahahah
joanne: hold on, your post is coming very sooooon
kim: hello kim i love you more than a love song
clarice: haha s'alright! well now you know! :)
carol: oh its nothing... Hapyy Birthday!!!

Mood: Sweaty, Idealistic

2009-07-15T22:01:00.003+08:00

CAROL'S 14th Birthday!

in school, we had fun.
during chinese class i had to reveal a past about myself. I thought it was rather eye opening. didn't write that in my textbook for fear people will read it. sorry guise, stays in the ears of my chinese class.
sherilyn told me that starbucks at coro opens today weeee

changed the lyrics of 7 things to "no thing" credits to everyone who showed up thanks for making it possible(: Sang it to carol, she wuz really touched :D

______ was feeling pretty salty.
Hannah and I always say the same things at the same time
sarahjoy and kim treated me to spaghetti. must return $$

mom cooked my fave meal i ish happy kid
my family is the most unglam when it comes to watching HK dramas.
they are NOT sympathetic.

Lynnette was outta sight... so were a few other people
yu xuan 's sick encounter haha in class
talked to joanne for the first time in ages

can't wait for sis to come back with Kitty!
gave my 12 july note to joanne to cheer her up

and i had the time of my life.

i will sleep now.

this is so twitterish

For it's worth everything

2009-07-12T16:24:00.003+08:00

Ho hum! For this cycle Ep Launch was great last night.
Went with Gladys and Clarice! :D
Trella, Fire Away, Samson, Tacit Aria and Jon Chan and Kevin Matt. played.

This conversation made me and Clarice laugh like mad women.
Gladys: So is this "纸脚"? (Paperfeet)
Clarice and I: Huh? What? ( I thought she talking about dumplings"水胶" wth)
Gladys: Is he going to play "纸脚"? (again, she thought we couldn't hear)
Me: What is "纸脚"?!
Gladys: Paperfeet!

After the show, we ran around town in the rain!
THE BEST. Thanks uh Gladys, if we never send you there, we wouldn't be able to run in the rain. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
ZAT WUZ FUN.

First time I saw so many people on a non-school day.

CAN'T WAIT FOR TUESDAY.

Tug reply.

2009-07-12T16:17:00.004+08:00

Again, your long-awaited replies!

kiana: haha why am i so predestined for rascim ARGH DON'T JUDGE ME HAHA

Kim: Thanks for that! (: you know i'd be there for you no matter, the first to tell you you didn't do anything wrong if anything screws up(: YESH photo deprivation ah haha

sherilyn: OMG yeah those jokes were retarded! oh did you know that you can't show emotion when you have botox?! FREAKING PAINFUL SIA

kim: we all live, laugh, love.

ven: PHOOEY DAT WAS FUNNY! what without what? pls explain.

joanne: YOU GOT TELL ME TO POST MEH?!!! FINEZ. I will. ah the forwards backwards thing assured me that you are not safe to be around with. JK ha

choops: YEAH! i was watching drag me to hell and the cat so poor thing and cute. I also heard about this twistie kitty story argh CATZ

ven: I AM BAACK! Db is your Bd.

HQ: yeah right pigs will fly

ainur: HEHE home econs will do mad things.

see more Funny Graphs

Good you know that.

Twittering

2009-07-09T21:23:00.001+08:00

I almost picked up a glue thinking it was a banana.

Michael Jackson Tribute, Stockholm

2009-07-09T18:10:00.001+08:00

In light of recent events...

Flash Mob!

Break the Chains

2009-07-06T22:56:00.002+08:00

Past few days, dancedancedance.
I don't like the costume. It's going to be very.
Well, you can see it for yourself.
Since you all are going to be invited for the performance.
DON'T LAUGH AT ME. Seriously.
Homework with Sujata and Tricia after ballet was retarded.
Nan Hua sec ones are smarter than me. Argh.

I felt guilty for not going to the COCOA meetings,
so I finally decided to finish the camp booklet and Tshirt design.
Sorry guys, I've been neglecting my resp. as design head.
I'll treat you all to bbt!
(If I have enough money or else I buy one everybody share. wait that's gross)

Jurong point with ven and ting to do homework, cut ven's funny hair and watch Drag Me to Hell.
Was fun. As always. Thanks Ting for helping me with my chinese homework, I promise I will work hard to get into (winkwink*)!
Cheapo tickets for 5 each. Watched, screamed, covered eyes.
Both of them wanted to go home, I thought they were crying halfway through.
Hey you guys always give me a wake-up call I should study hard.
MOTIVATION is the key!
dylan and jocelyn left today, was kinda sad but I had a fun time with those crazy kids.
I needed training for the CO camp cause as you all know, I'm terrible with kids! ):
Phooey ven, your Db, I have made up a story during the bus ride home I'll tell you another day:D

I had a cool and relaxing weekend.
Time to dig in the heels and start going!

You had me at hello

2009-07-05T22:37:00.003+08:00

I wish I had a cat.

edit/I wish vans won't ever be open in Singapore.

She had the world

2009-07-02T20:55:00.003+08:00

Cobra Starship vs Leighton Meester = Gabe's dream come true haha
Gabe:"Can you believe I actually got to do a song with BLAIR WALDORF?!"
Unleash your inner GossipGirl.net.org.com.cn.sg whatever illegal websites haha

Today:
I brought my pillow to school. Made my life easier.
Justina was back. With good news about her school! (:
Everyone except 2 were nice today. WOOHOO
EVERYDAY IS SO FUN!
I had a funny talk with Kiana.
Recess food is not on my menu.
$1 Beehoon is.
My english teacher talks funny. She wears the same clothes every other day.
Science remedial at science room. Urgh.
dance at the hall. Yu Xuan kept pushing my **** down. :D
Nicole Chai is ah beng.
YuXuan is perv/emoaunty
Lim Shan is a squid.
Ferine is Vaio.
Si Lin is hoedownthrowdown!
Alicia is Sushi.
Cherry is 4th floor.
:D

Wednesday:
I went to Ven's house to use her tablet to design the shirt for NYPSCO's camp. Her tablet is dead! OMG I was late cause of PW >:( they waited for me to finish my coke. Uhh in case you're wondering, my primary school best friends: xingting and kityan :O

I laughed most of the day = jocelyn and dylan + kityan's stupid jokes + beatrice's irritating riddle + ting's stupid videos and her reactions very funny + ven reading manga + thinking about terence = A HAPPY ME!

I love all my friends!
They're the bestest cause they make me feel like we're on the top of the world!
I love all the people in the world!
Spread the love!

:DDDDDD

Kimberly, the fairy.

2009-06-29T17:26:00.003+08:00

Kimberly
A sweet compassionate girl that finds the beauty in everything. She is always willing to give a helping hand. Everyone loves her as soon as they meet her. Tends to be very sexy and confident.
(urbandictionary)

Here's the post I promised you.
Don't worry I'm not gonna go all," erm, I don't know what to say..."
Cause I know you won't like that. (:

Sharing so much in common, we sure do have alot of things to talk about. Haha
Thanks for being there always, I honestly thought that I was going through that period of confusion alone, I didn't think anyone would tell me to pick myself up. Thanks alot, cause your messages do really help. Even if the little "Are you okay"s still cheer me up, cause I know that you are just that adoring, caring person that makes you so special from other people.

I'm not saying you cannot be sad forever, but promise me that when something happens, don't bottle it up. You can tell a friend, but if you don't trust them, you can always just cry. Go to sentosa and scream into the horizon. I don't care.
Do anything to make you feel better.
Because you deserve it.

Come to think of it, I've never taken a photo with you alone only.

Love talking to you about anything under the sun.

Don't be a stranger>:)

Ted and Teg

2009-06-29T17:11:00.002+08:00

First day of school since the holidays.
I had fun seeing all the familiar faces.
I had a great time catching up with everyone.
I was happy today(:
However, due to my faulty thermometer which gave me a 38.4 temp,
I had to stay in the hall with jasmine tan for almost 3 hours.
I slept with my mask on.
ew, gross.

minyang is an artist LOL she drew stuff on my chinese notebook.
And that little anecdote. THANKS that was nice of ya :D

Kiana and Ivie kept telling me stuff like non-stop, I couldn't get a word in, so did nicole chai. Don't they ever stop to breathe? What about their thirst? Don't their tongues get dry? These mysterious feats never ceases to amaze me.

Joanne? She went a little nuts after staying at home the whole of holidays haha.
She was facing forwards, walking backwards. I overheard saying to Sherilyn,"It looks as if I'm going backwards, but actually I'm going forwards." Right. We totally understand that logic. -.-

Hannah got a really cute banana pencilcase from minyi and I was shocked to hear it cost $20 omg. SHOCK. HooHoo, we are back to the front two seats. ><

7 people were on LOA(Leave on Absence) because they were either sick or were on quarantine. Gladys, Carol, Justina, Clarice, Jia Ying, SarahJoy. Phooey. They are lucky.

Science centre with Si Lin and Nicole to do our science homework.
We happily ate at the macdonalds, until...
To our horror, the place was CLOSED.><
RRRRR!
How irritating, we took our time just to go there and spent more time than we should have. What a wasted trip. Tch.

Before I go off, I have one last thing to say. I was listening to the radio and it sounded like a pretty good station with classical tunes. Felt pretty relaxed after a tiring day.
Then I realised it was Expat.
That's a indian radio station.
o.O

2009-06-28T14:46:00.003+08:00

BLACKMAIL

i like silent films the best.

I SHUT DOWN YOU

2009-06-28T14:21:00.002+08:00

As Ms Fong said in dance today, " All of you girls are tired. But some of you, when you are tired, you give up on yourselves. Don't do that"

And i think this unexpected sliver of wisdom from my otherwise cute-lovable-funnaye-blur-ultimate- fave dance teacher can apply to much more than dance.
I love dance, i love dance.
When i dance i feel alive, when i dance, i thrive, when i dance a smile wreathes my face and i'm suffused with this euphoria and i feel like everything is magic and i can wrap the world round my little finger.
When i dance well, i feel like i can do anything, anything at all.
I love my dance mates, i love how we're so bonded and together.
Dance the past two days have totally made me smile.
From Ms Fong's funny mid-sentence pauses,
being Paulina Poriskova and teaching us how to tell horror stories,
to our favourite phrases, "CAN YOU NOT" and "No...just...no",
to roundhouse kicking each others butts,
to dancing our beloved Metamorphosis,
all in the name of fun, to lying on top of each other in one huge pile,
legs in a tangled heap and talking,
to catching each others eyes mid-dance and grinning at each other,
to all the epic epic epic moments,

HAHA you know what i mean, to laughing and screaming and giggling
and all our trips to macs and back,
this gaggle of confident, cool, crazy girls in black.

I have no clue when this whole family spirit started,
when it began to percolate through the dancers,
but i am so blessed to have all of them,
i have no idea what i'd do without them.
(this whole paragraph is ONE sentence ZOMG)

Cheers to our Bintan chalet trip and speaking with a British twang and finding British husbands and midnight scary movies and CAN YOU NOTs.
Char, Sarah, Izzie, Xin Tian, Yu Xuan, Nicole, the whole bunch of you, lovelovelove, i am so grateful.

Aww, that's so sweet. By the time I'm sec 4 I'm really really gonna miss everyone.
I had the most fun with you guys. I'd give anything in the world to have friends like you guys :D I LOVE YOU ALL TTM!
(charmaine, you are not allowed to make fun of this.)

after spending 3 whole days at ven's house, I don't feel like it's boring or anything. I'm glad I have her as a best friend i can count on. I hope I do give her enough space, because sometimes I lean on her for emotional support. She can take my frowns away by just saying something completely non-sensical.
Yep, that's my best friend.

She's wonderful, caring, friendly, nice, helplessly slow(LOL) and most of all, loving. All the nights we stay up late just to talk about our not-so-different lives and hanging out with pangster and kityanz were some great memories.
I know when she reads this she's gonna cringe and shiver, cause it's so darn mushy. Hahah, that's ven for ya.

PANGSTER and KITYANZ I miss miss miss you guys alot!
I really can't wait for us to hang out again.
I don't even care about going to lot 1 as long as I can spend time with you guys/
AND ALL THE STUPID JOKES? haha wouldn't give it up for the world or anything.

my dance mates, my best friends in primary school, my good friends in school.
I'm blessed to have these people in my lie to enlighten me and give me hope.
Though I know that I will never be the friend they wish for, I just wish to do the best I can to make sure they are never sad or unforgiven.

Friends vs Materialism.
I've come to realise the importance of the two, and I'd pick the first choice everytime.

Shred, White and Blue

2009-06-28T14:04:00.003+08:00

I'm doing it again. Looking up things in urban dictionary.
Many are true, but once I've looked at a word for too many times,
it becomes weird and exceptionally foreign to me. ARGH.

Jocelyn is freaking cute.

WHABA-whut?

2009-06-25T23:46:00.003+08:00

I are at Ven's house.
Ven, beatrice and dylan (their cousin) are playing DS hahaha
they are so animated. Haha we tried to have a DS party just now
I WON TWICE WOOHOO
anyway, we dwell on days where we play mariokart haha

talking about wednesday.

Somewhere in orchard with Srah and Charmaine to do our homework.
We sat next to some wierdo guy who opened his legs right infront of me.
EEAAARGGHH. YAY we ate frolick. I AM SO SATISFIED!
poor yu xuan couldn't come ): THEY KEPT LAUGHING AT MY UMBRELLA :O

Went to Ven's house and went to vivo with her family. WEEHHEEE HOOO
Did 1/2 homework at night.
Manga Party at night.
I was the last to sleep.
oopsie i kept the lights on for a long time. phooey.(beatrice)
AAAAAAAAAAH.

woke up to dylan and jocely tickling our feet.
when dylan went out of the room, we were still sleeping and he was making a ruckus
jocelyn "SHUUUSSHH" him and said "sorry!" before closing the door.
she's 4.

AND THAT VENETIA WONG SAY WHAT WE WAKE UP THE LATEST SAY WHAT:
"if you dont wake up now ahh.... you all will be late you know..." (like she was the one who woke up first)
THEN WE WENT SHOPPING/window.
Went to many places.
WOOHOO I GOT MY WARPED TOUR CD!
we ate much, drank much, watched land of the lost.
I WANT TO WATCH TRANSFORMERSS!
OH EAH we saw xingting there hoohoo she tore the tickets before she went for the movie HAHA i wonder what happened. HAHA
we took BURSTPICS and you know how that goes....
HEHE I had the most fun today!
venetia and beatrice got an? itouch.

RRRRR!(when i say ww is very...)

We had a heart to heart talk till 4am.
We watched pellet sleep and beatrice laughing like mad cow.
She laugh at stupid things like about umbrellas.
Ven told me something shocking things about her primary school life.
But there wasn't much to talk about since we knew much about each other.
And we were just teenagers.
We don't have much life.
We slept soundly till we woke up to dylan and jocelyn knocking on our doors.
ARGH we woke up at 12.

playplayplayplay our ds, laptop, itouch.

OH YEAH me and beatrice baked muffins and cooked ramen.
I must say we are pretty good cause Ven says it tastes just like how her maid cooks.
her maid cooks really well. HOOHOO.

Were supposed to go westmall to get movies to watch at night, but was too late.
We watched Tinkerbell and Ariel instead.
-.-
Ven is in love with a fairy LOL
THAT WAS RETARDED because the guy who voiced the fairy was jesse mccartney.

Slept early cause Ven had dental in the morning.

Chris Brown and Rihanna

2009-06-24T01:34:00.002+08:00

Heard on radio:
CHRIS BROWN SENTENCED: TODAY.
Mrs Chris Brown is sentenced to 5 years of probation and 180 days of community service.
description: picking up trash, etc.
That's stupid cause that's what boy scouts do for their CCA!
HAHA that is retarded I heard this over the radio for muttons.
It's unfair.
Now you don't have to say allegedly cause he already admitted to it.
R, you poor thing. ):

I lose things, alot. I've lost alot of jackets and shirts an especially my PE shirts argh. I've lost 3 already. I also owe alot of people money. People I don't even know. They're gonna kill me.

Singfest is delayed, I hope it won't be during exams period!
Phooey, I forced myself to read The Clay Marble today.
It's a touching story... I was moved. aha, i can't believe i just typed that haha

homework left:
Science centre thing, IH worksheet.

Alas, your long awaited tag replies.

2009-06-22T12:54:00.002+08:00

K: HAHA YEAH OOH SOMETHING SHINY

Ivie: YA FRIGGIN HOT EVEN MY BONES COULD FEEL IT

ven: okie, you're back already haha

BEVERLY: ya d00d. haha i can't believe it. I was so shocked! BAND MANAGER?! sure anot. you and your bra cup size you sure want to become their manager? HAHA

joanne: hehe thanks love

izzie; sup

vans: thanks much:D i love to read yours too hehe

ven: SHADDAP LAH PWN YOUR HEAD LAH YOU NOOB I BETTER MAN haha

Not scared, or surprised.

2009-06-21T02:27:00.003+08:00

Life's a Beach 987 @ sentosa
Were you there? Cause the weather's freaking brutal.
Went there early and walked around aimlessly, stayed till West Grand Boulevard came on, Bryan/Brian. Stupid angmoh girls. I cannot stand it when girls like the band just because a band member is hot. :Z
The fire fight,"I LOVE YOU JOSH!" haha.
If you say "Jack and Rai" really fast, it sounds like "chicken rai" HAHA
AVA mosh like mad. WOOHOO :D
AVA IS NOT ANGELS AND AIRWAVES. haha
Stupid people dropkick spoil the action.
Unconsious girl :O
Went home stinky. EEAARRGGHH.

Communication Downbreak

2009-06-20T00:55:00.005+08:00

Let me tell you how lazy I am. I spilt a full cup of water on my table and I haven't cleaned it up. The water is dried already. YARGH Lunch with Yx. While waiting, called ven to talk to that busy-holiday-mama. Can you believe she went to US for 3 weeks? Quote from her blog:

once we arrived, chionged down the plane. got held back at customs for 1h  cause i was so lucky.
when it was my turn to do the fingerprint thing at the customs.  once i put my finger down to scan,
it was exactly 12 new york time.  i unknowningly hacked into the system or so called make it break down.  
had to wait and redo lots of stuff, even though i was so obviously not a  potential terrorist they just
could not let me go -.-

HAHAAHA I was laughing like mad when I read it and I am still laughing.
What kind of coincidence can this be?
Anyway, I was laughing like mad and I missed her so much I can't wait to crash her house.
But still have lots homework not done yet, perhaps I won't go to her house on the weekends.
Or maybe I will sleep over on sunday so I can leave for school in the morning.
What a great start!

I went yu xuan's house yesterday, we were supposed to study, but we ended up watching random chinese taiwanese celeb's videos. I can't believe I watched taiwanese-related things and even laughed water out of my nose! Urggh, just kidding. But I almost did! When we were leaving, Yu Xuan missed her bus. Hhaha, I am a sadist.

BWAHAHAH HOO HA HOO HAA After that I made a wasted trip to the library, am too angry to talk about it. I spent 2hours, 25 minutes, 31 seconds on 15 questions in my online homework. MMMMMAAAAAAAMMAAAAA Why!?

><>

2009-06-19T01:13:00.000+08:00

You should look at the way you behaved,
I wouldn't do things to people I don't want them to do to me.

Slowly, it's biting my head off.

2009-06-17T02:30:00.000+08:00

Kicking Your Crosses Down - Circa Survive

Reality, It's just a matter of perspective.

2009-06-16T10:06:00.005+08:00

little kids are just so adorable. A pedephilic moment beats the whole "look at me, I'm so cool don't look at me" moment. GRR.

2009-06-16T09:51:00.001+08:00

Halo, the world!

I've got a livejournal just for adding people, so here's my url:

http://thewhisperwar.livejournal.com/

CLICK IT CLICK IT CLICK IT!

and add me!

Ivie, where's your livejournal? hehe
GOOD LUCK FOR 2(?) AUDITIONS :D

Deceit has ways of sticking around

2009-06-15T21:40:00.003+08:00

I wish to see people closing their eyes while i watch bravely.

HU HU HU HU. I IZ BRAVE.

Anybody up for 99 minutes of gory details?

I'm eggcited to see this one cause it's directed by speilberg and I want to see how manly Megan Fox is.

Anyone up for 147 minutes of Mission City?

Sunday, Ivie, Jasmine and I headed down to Expo for CHC's "Celebrity Weekend" service.

There were many celebrity icons such a jaclyn (the one who got bankrupt), winners of beauty pageants and the F4 guy(vanness, i thought it was a girl) and last but not least, FIR!

OMG I was so excited for their songs, luckily they played 2 songs when we got there. OMG I'm such a big fan of them. They're the only reason why I would ever listen to chinese music haha (ALL FAHRENHEIT PEOPLE HATE ME NOW MUAHAHA) just kidding.

We had lunch at this bedok coffee shop thingum. The food took so long, as if the fries they bought from mars and the chicken they bought from the moon according to Jiayu LOL Having bible study with them on Friday. :O

Today an apocalypse shook the town of tiantian(BEVERLY.. GRRR) and guess WHUT. I WOKE UP AT FRIGGIN 4.

not 4 to 10.

not 4 to 11.

4PM.

I almost fainted cause I thought that the hour hand was pointing to 11 and the minute hand was pointing to 4 so i thought it was 11.20am when in fact it was 4. Oh dear me, and I slept so early the night before too! 1am! How can I sleep till 4?! Anyway ven is coming back tomorrow, YIPEE! It's time to crash her house again!

Now you have bigger eyes to see me, I'll have bigger ears to hear you.

I'm not dreaming,

We're forgetting our forgiveness

Chucky.

2009-06-12T22:22:00.003+08:00

Monday - Yu Xuan at the library NAILZ
-study with char and sarah and yu xuan
-science centre with the 2:3 peeps
-Lynn and Bev at henderson waves

I've gotta do these things with these ladies.

I'm a real big fan of Jonas Bros. Really. They're my idols OMG SQEUAL NICK JONAS!
(sweeps unnecassary emo fringe) Anyway if you wanna ridicule Jonas Bros. go search "single ladies nick jonas" and you might just be scarred for the rest of your life. WATCH IT AT YOUR OWN RISK!

Little known fact: My whole family made me and my 4 year old cousin when I was 5 years old watch the infamous CHUCKIE MOVIE DARN IT. I wonder how my parents were raised... haha

YAY I can't wait for baybeats this august!
Anberlin ish 'ere!
the line-up? not as crazy.
Caracal is doing a China Tour hahah

I just found out the England has Kerrang! channel!!!
OMG Jiaying you lucky woman! ><

Zee ya aroundz guize! :O

Reptar, king of ozone

2009-06-12T22:10:00.003+08:00

THE ONLY THING I REALLY KNOW:
I CAN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT!

I really cannot sleep at night! I use the computer into 3 am and I would be really sleepy for the rest of the day. i did that the whole of this week. Sunday night I slept late and I practically slept during dance. Same goes for tuesday.

Wednesday... Hm did I do anything? i dont remember where I went. Oh yeah I just stayed at home using the computer, AGAIN. NB. (noodle boob) NICOLE OOI! Have a safe journey! We miss you and your funny little solo :DDDDD

Thursday I went to gladys' and ivie's cell for their chalet thingum. HOT SIA and the sand was killing us. I promise, I cannot stand sweltering heat. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH. We were like running on hot coals. Ivie got splashed haha. I also want. After that we went to cool off at the poolside. Ivie and Gladys told me their dreams. Amen! They're so funny when the are animating their dreams. Drama queen. I had a hot, but fun day(:

Friday which is today I woke up early and sleepily cause jas came to my house at 8.30 but i was awake since 7.30 -.- Went to the CO meeting and we finished some stuff but the turn out for the girls weren't that great. hahah never mind anyway we got the job done. I'm pretty excited for this year's camp cause I'm gonna be the photographer and gonna do the whole photo slideshow montage at the end of the camp.
I hope I do a good job cause I don't have much experience in photography. I need help!

This whole week I haven't done much homework. I plan to finish half of them by this week so i can relax. I think I'm going Sarawak cause my dad's been feeling much better. I scared myself last week so much I didn't dare to eat the whole day. Anorexia? No. Just a case of the misfits.

Yeowch. So anyway, I've got no inspiration to type, I'll see what I'll do cause I need my daily dose of laughter. See ya around guise. (:

Harry Potter and the Ooh! Something Shiny!

2009-06-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

Ooh! Something Shiny! Hhaah this line is so justina.

2009-06-06T15:31:00.002+08:00

TinTin impromtu a song - UNPLUGGED.
haha to the tune of Remembering Sunday
"WHY YOU LIDDAT"
Killing my ears. Just Kidding.

This is my panic, and this is my call to arms.

2009-06-06T02:52:00.002+08:00

clara: oh the thing! yeah okok dont be sad anymore so we can show ya
bev:since when?! omg.
kim: oh haha its okay i hope ya liked it(:
choops: omg! sorry sorry i tagged already.
ven: sup how's the museum miss you man im going crazy im supa bored
minying: what

Monday: MOE excel thingum. LOVE IT. Performance was goodeh! Lim Rei was there, some of the seniors came to help out. OH YES and the macbeth thing haha. All the dance videos and even the macbeth videos are on facebook. Argh the horror, but the crazy antics that everyone gets up to makes my day :D
(yu xuan! don't cry anymore okay? it's all right, your mom may not talk to her. I feel the happiest when i'm with you all too! :D look on the brightside! Don't scare yourself haha)

Wednesday: Oral at school, AWEZUME. Kim's house with hannah. mmm, subway.

Thursday: Nicole's house for math project with min yi, dannielle and si lin. I think we're about 1/5 done cause yknow we have 5 people. Another group of crazy chickoodles.

Friday:
Dance from 1-6, I was so tired by the time I got to Earshot cafe for Beneath the Floorboards gig.
ARGH I missed forthiscycle darn it.
The rest, Postbox, Trella and Amataeur Takes control were gooddeeeh! I wanted to buy their EP but as usual, no kaching.
Those two ah, missed not one, but TWO good opportunity to talk to COUGHCOUGH.
After that, dinner/supper/lunch with Jas and Arella.
Slept at the tent thing outside Esplanade what do you call it. Watch some TAITV and went home.
HAHAH those two actually believed my dad was living at the fullerton's suite. YEAH but we really wanted I think we were this close to getting a hotel room and just sleep there. But in the end I still came home sigh.

Tomorrow is Dannielle's performance with Nicole and Bethany. Haha I will finally see her in a tutu. Have a great weekend guys, time to mug!

Back to math.

JAZMINE

2009-06-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

OMG if you know who is jasmine ho jia min in st margarets secondary school, see this FREAKING HILARIOUS:http://www.facebook.com/note.php?created&&suggest¬e_id=87564881794#/profile.php?id=1044543409

You've compromised your doctrines.

2009-05-31T19:58:00.008+08:00

I am the Wondergay!

Looks wrong?

I take good candids. Just kidding.

haha ivie your face is priceless!

Kim's Birthday

Nicole's bookb!

Totally Spies Fail at Literature

BEATRICE. T-SHIRT.

YUXUANEMOAUNTEH<3

This is for a very close friend of mine, Pokemon.
Connecting the Dots- A Vacant Affair
(if you don't know this song, this is the YOU SHOULD LOOK AT YOURSELF song)
YEAH CHEERS TO AVA
(you better read every single word! because it's all for you.)

Run, that's all that we've done
There is so much ahead of us
Please take small steps I know you can't wait to find your place
For so long, tasted this, you've taken things way too far
Now believe me, there's more to this, there's nothing left for us here

Now that I'm going home please be there for me
This is the place I've know to fear the most, only time will tell
If this should bid us well

Open up your eyes
And take a good look for yourself
What's the point of this
We can't just stand here watch now
And you know I can't make it on my own
For so long, tasted this, you've taken things way too far
Now believe me, there'e more to this, there's nothing left for us here
Now that I'm going home please be there for me
This is the place I've grown to fear the most, only time will tell
If this should bid us well

We used to laugh so easily
We used to cry so easily
You should look at yourself
Right now, no distance is too far away
And no difference will ever tear us apart
I will get there

Pokemon: You know this song is so unknown, I can't find the lyrics GRAH I typed every single word from memory? Haha, but I would type every word in the world, so long as you are no longer sad(: When you are down, I hope that when you listen to this song, you will be happy. :D

I had a dream about being King Duncan I forgot to tell Lynnette! But I forgot what the dream was. darn.
But I still remember what the dream about Jeremy was. Pretty awkward.
Me: (spots J) HEY! :D
Jeremy: :O (ran away with his gf and their puppy??)
Me: DEVIL WEARS PRADA!!!!!!!!!
Jeremy: (turns around) oh, hi there. I see you know who I am.
Me: uhh, YEAH. YOU'RE JEREMY DEPOYSTER DAMMIT( excuse the damn. hehe.)
Jeremy: ALL RIGHT ALRIGHT! I forgot the rest.

What an anti climax.

Dear Lisa - IntoHimo
it's all for you. I'll move on.

The sound of animals fighting.

2009-05-31T00:12:00.003+08:00

We lay before you all with the emptiness that is your life
Drop your anchor down, and stay in place.
-"The Heraldic Beak Of The Manufacturer's Medallion"

Gig at FAD at Haji Lane: Corefest DAY 1
With Jas, Dione and Izz.
I got pwned not catching someone crowdsurfing. Twice.
The gig was funny though, many funny/awkward moments.
someone bu shuang.
Jas had an embarrassing moment with a angmohlang. HAHA PWNED
LET THE TERROR EDICATE.
170 with dione! the woman. needs. catching. up. :D

Beverly: Kay, love ya too. Don't stress too much about the 'thing' okay? (: love you too!
ven: HAHAH BET YOUR DS AND YOUR 360 guitar hero!
K: not you, you're still trustable.

We're composing our funeral songs, note by note.

2009-05-28T23:30:00.002+08:00

I want to know everything,
I want know it all!

I want the gory details,
whatever you got!

Bring me to my knees!

Think you exist?

2009-05-28T22:06:00.002+08:00

ven: heya better stop saying LOL or i will pwn you again haha. HAVE FUN IN THE SMITHSONIAN MUSEUM. look for BRA(u)NDON. hahaha (:

K: ttm. :D

XINGTING!: I'm not going japan anymore. cause of swine(sway) flu. ):

LYNNETTE!: Haha glad ya liked it. Don't worry too much okay! Just know if you need any help, I'm just a phone call away (:

CHECK THIS OUT. I was searching for cheesy pick up lines (hahaha pun. ivie's blog) and this came out. OMG it's so hilarious! The pokemon one and the terrorist one especially!
http://www.mushylove.com/love-quotes/pick-up-lines-cheesy-love-text/

Yesterday I had dance training again, this time at the hall which was worse. It's really hard to breathe in the hall. DARN IT if one day someone dies in the hall we'll know who to blame. I was so tired and sleepy from the night before at the start of the dance when I did a spin, I fell and hit my knee caps. Argh, I was in real deep pain. But of course I didn't show it cause it was funny too. I was just laughing "HAHAHA" after I fell. I'm so wierd. But the pain was so unbearble I almost teared. Yeah, to top it all off, I had cramps. The most painful cramps ever and it had to happen when I was being scolded by the teachers. It was just so tough for me to even walk down the stairs with the bulging blisters at my feet. Sigh, I just couldn't hold back the tears and they started rolling down but oh well, it was no big deal. Thanks to those who asked how I was. :D We can persevere, we can do it. Only 5 more days! Then the torture is OVER(: I'm just gonna put my trust in God.
OMG nicole's blister is crazy and she keeps peeling it argh. Watch me squirm.
Hall is hot, gosh. Just lying infront of the fans is paradise enough. LOL Yu Xuan your boxers hahahahaha. Sorry I kept hitting our finger whoopsie. ):

I wrote lynnette a note today. S'been a long time I wrote notes. Aww, but she really deserves that note after all she's been through (: EGO-BOOSTER huh! LMAO

there was this talk about cyber-bullying. The talk was pretty funny but I don't think it was wise of our class' trainer to use vulgarities while in school. As such, she was an authority in our school and us students were supposed to respect the authorities. If the authorities themselves cannot set a good example for the younger generation, how are we going to be more forward-thinking? What, saying vulgarities all the time(including some other worse words)? Well, good job. Congrats! You've done it! Look at the world. Are you happy.

Sorry, I'm cyber bullying her. SORRY but this is true. Not only applies to her.

It's hard to forget about Lisa these few days. All that pain she went through, just hurts my heart ALOT. I still remember vividly the day the she told me we might not be friends anymore. When she told me she had the disease, my heart shattered into a million pieces. I felt very useless and crappy cause I couldn't say anything to make her feel better. That's the thing, she really wasn't going to live for much longer.

I felt like the worse friend she could ever have. Though she knew she wasn't going to live for very long, she did not expect anything from me. She was just that forgiving and kind-hearted. That was about one of the most hurtful moments of my entire life. Last week, when I saw her, she was so weak and fragile it was hard to look at her without crying. I put on a smile just to show everything all right when I was actually dying inside.Though she probably saw through my phony act, she was still as caring, forgiving and courageous at such a crucial time. When she finally left for heaven on sunday, I prayed she would come back as an angel like she was when she was still living.

RIP, Lisa Ng Li Ling. You'll be in my heart forever. Bless you.

Life seems so boring without her glorious smile, her joyful voice and her cheerful attitude.
Through this experience, I know everything will go downhill from here. Expect more downs than ups. We are just pessimistic that way.

Sadly, I can no longer trust the friends I have in school. It's all so mundane and overrated, they all have an over-exerted ego they can't get rid of.

Argh, I feel so lousy now. I gotta sleep or I'll fall again. Sighhh

Paralyzed

2009-05-25T21:35:00.004+08:00

Today was the last day for a dear friend of mine, Lisa.
We spent this day without speaking.
Nonetheless, we had nothing to say to each other.
Too appalled at the very news of what would happen the next day.
Lisa, you were an inspiration to my life.
You've brought me up and down, gone through every bitter moment of my life with me.
I can't thank you enough. Truthfully, I can't thank you at all for what I've put you through.
I've been so merciless and self-centered person I've forgotten about the one person who's stuck with me since forever.
I feel guilty, ashamed, hurt that someone as godsend as you has been hurt so much by me.
I just want to say,
I'm sorry.
I really am.
What would it give to see you again?

xiao qiang

2009-05-23T11:02:00.002+08:00

School is just tough nowadays. I don't think I'll be enjoying it for awhile. Thank God for the holidays. A month's enough to give me a break from these people.

After school Yu Xiang, Yu Rong, Melissa, Joanne, Clarice and I went back to Nanyang Primary to reminiscise. SIGH. the class rooms, the cca room, the basketball court, the canteen. Makes me feel like I regretted not treasuring my time there. But I had fun though, it was great to see the teachers I once loved and will always. There were so nice in primary school ):

Next monday and tuesday we will be going through our papers. I don't think I am ready and so is everyone. It's going to be denial, denial, denial. I'll just do what ven did when she showed the marks to other people. I hope no one breaksdown too heavily. It's the june hols for goodness sake! Forget about it and move on to better things. The past will only pull you back from the future's surprises.

Went to Ven's house after that. Watched Night at the Museum 2 at westmall with her parents. VERY FUNNY. I recommend you watch it. :D :D :D :O :O :O :] :] :]
Last week ven's sister, beatrice wore phuket,thailand shirt. 7 days later, RAINFOREST CAFE @ DA ZOO. -.- i have a photo and i'll constantly remind her everytime she is a fashion victim. haha.

I'm going to the acs international carnival thingum later. TATA!

Throw your diamonds in the sky!

2009-05-19T19:21:00.002+08:00

KIM: Duh! We've got super friends like you! How was sentosa?

K: Who Are Yau.

Lynnette: haha, i just watched it again today. HOW COOL WAS IT the eagle eye really had a lot of eyes and then how cool is that that bombs can be detonated when a note is played around a freaking DIAMOND?!

jian hong: ah boy ah... daddy very upset because you always bully your mommy... call her small head... that's why he got heart attack!

Injuries: Feet, Blister, Blue-black, floor-burn. ouch.
I can't grasp the dance fast enough. Today we finished up the choreography of the 4th dance and man was it tiring! I was panting like crazy and I couldn't breathe properly. My heart started throbbing really painfully around the first few runs. Before that, Ms Viv and Ms Fong were scolding us and we definitely we shook off. I heard she wasn't that fierce last year, but it seems she wants to go down hard on us. Eeek!
The second dance took a longer time to choreograph and it was more complicated than the first one. YEOW my calf muscles hurt when I walk down the stairs. Sucks to be rehearsing in the school hall with only 8 fans -.-

alrighty it was a tiring day I'm glad I didn't go to sentosa with the 2/3 peeps or else I would be sleeping on the sand and I wouldn't be here typing. I'd prolly still be there, the waves crashing over me. On the brighter side, I ate cream sauce spaghetti and watched the rest of Eagle Eye today at Nicole's house. Sigh I'm so sleepy I might skip dinner. Tata! (:

I've got a hunger, twisting my stomach into knots

2009-05-18T18:24:00.006+08:00

Now that exams are over, we all have too much free time.
I don't feel like going out cause I'm definitely going to spend/owe money(more like the latter).
I'm just stoning at home. STONE STONE STONE EARGH.
Can anyone give me ideas how to waste my time away?

My brain's repeating
"if you've got an impulse let it out"